It sucks to be me...

It really sucks to be me right now... Why? Oh just pick a card...

I am sick.. have feber.. a cold.. have a pain in my back.. my whole existens hurts...

I don't have any cash.. any at all.. have no food at home.. no smokes.. no nothing...

And its only 16days left.. only *cries* 16 days left until I get paid... It sucks to be me... I working and working and even that I dont feel ok in anyway I work.. There is not to many ppl that are ok at this time of the year, but what can I do...I need the cash, so I need to work to get it...

My happy me feels gone.. I normaly just jump around and beeing a silly happy person.. But not anymore... I lost myself... somewhere... and don't know how to find me again... It sucks to be me...I forgot it was friday yesterday and missed my show.. my shows always makes me happy...And that I missed it makes me to feel more sad then I allready are...

But today its saturday and nothing going to make me miss it today..I hope it will make me feel a bit better...It sucks to be me...I sleeping so much but still are tired as hell all the time..

Think I sleeping so much because im sick.. my body needs it...But I sleeping to much and become more tired of it..And because I sleeping so much I miss so much I "should" have done instead...It sucks to be me...I have a 2 weeks long list of things I "should" allready have done...But I don't have time.. I don't have power.. and I don't feel like it..

It sucks to be me...
Am I depressed? Naaa not really.. I just lost myself somewhere and need to find me again...